Keeping myself in Check

I realized that my last 3 posts were pretty negative. So this is your chance to see something you wont' see often. Me apologizing.
See, i'm not really even apologizing, i'm just checking myself.
I am thankful i'm in the family.
I just became officially FD a few days ago.
I do like the place i'm moving to.
I am VERY GLAD for the extra help that will be available at this new place.
I'm looking forward to the opportunity to grow and change at this new place.
I'm thankful for such an awsome wedding I just got to participate in.
I'm very thankful I got to spend so much time with my best friends.
I'm very thankful I got to see and spend some time with my family.
I'm thankful I get along with those I live with.
I'm thankful those I live with understand and work well with teens.
I'm thankful those I live with have a good sense of balance between work and play under normal circumstances.
I'm thankful those I live with can handle the stress better than I can and they don't all have blogs to complain about it on.
I'm thankful people are praying for me.

So, for those of you who may have noticed that I've been complaining a bit, I'd like to apologize, your right, I'm sorry, I should praise no matter whats happening. It's something I need to learn to do more, and I do have alot to learn. So I just hope you guys realize that despite what I say I am actually thankful for a great many things, and I am very thankful for my home members, without whom I definetly wouldn't have lasted this long.

That's just Sick!

This is kinda a follow-up to my last post. It could maybe be considered, "the consequences of very little sleep". Apparently I ate something bad and (seeing as how my immune system was at an all time low due to averaging 5 hours of sleep a night for about a week) my body couldn't handle it.
Without going into too many gross details, I lost 7 pounds (not cool! hopefully I can gain that back) I slept for a good 36 hours, I've never felt weaker in my entire life. AHHHH! I need a break!
Haha, of course realisticly I just had much more of a break than I should have. 36 hours of sleep...I shouldn't have taken that much.
Right now a weekend at my parents trailer would sound REALLY REALLY nice. Relaxing sleep, TV, Video Games, Food, most importantly...no kids. WOW!
Ok well enough of that, enjoy your lives folks.

A Cacaphony of mixed emotions

My mind is racing.
My heart is throbbing.
My muscles are aching.
My back is breaking.
I'm happy.
I'm sad.
I'm excited.
I'm exhausted.
There's so much to say, I'm limited only by my vocabulary which, sad to say, limit's me quite a bit.

You won't understand these emotions until I back up a ways. Eight months ago to be exact....

December 26th 2005...
I've Just left a great Christmas at my brothers house, and I'm walking into the front door of the place I will call my home for the next three months. This will be the first time I've lived away from home for more than a few weeks. The longest I've been away from my parents. I'm completly flipped out.
Over the course of the next few months, certain problems arise, some personal and private, and some quite public and well known throughout the city. Nevertheless these problems stay in the realm of emotion, and don't merge with the physical. At least...not yet.
Sometime in March, I move over to another house for what was intended to be a One month stay. Wrong again.
The stay lasts Five months. Over this course of time I slowly break away from my old home, of which I am technically still a part of. And therein lies the problem. It has a little something to do with a thing called the "Criteria Review" and what happens when you fail. I tell you, I've not come this close to becoming FD to go MM now. We're given our verdict..."Join a new home by September 25th, or go MM". No turning back now, we've got no choice but a new home. Fortunately a place is found in San Antonio. Now comes the challenge of renovating a large house, and packing and moving an unbelieveable amount of stuff.
The order is given, from now on our freeday's will be cut in half. A sleep-in will be given, and no more until the move is completed.
But fortunatly there is good in everything. Despite the hair-pulling stress of this project, (at least one-quarter of which I must shoulder all on my own) there is still opportunity for fun, enjoyment, and relaxation...well, maybe not relaxation.
My sister Rosie, had her wedding last thursday. It was beyond excellent. It's amazing how a wedding with such a small budget and whose reception is held in a trailer park can turn out so well. I've not had so much fun at a wedding in a long, long time. But the fun's not over, another half-day with my friends and family is way too cool.
Having three of the greatest people I know spending two nights in my home also helps keep the excitement alive. But throughout all the fun and excitement I am still bothered by the pestering thought...September 25th, MOVE IT!
All good things must come to an end, and so did this visit from my best friends. It will certainly be remembered for a long time to come. Not only by the fun that was had...but by the day that followed. A day that will be remembered for all time as "The Day from Hell" Subtitle..."Ducks!".
I cannot possibly describe how much I'm going through right now, partly because I have to keep my blog fairly edifying, partly because alot of it is personal and things I don't feel comfortable sharing with the world, and partly because I lack the words to describe just how much is going on in my head. I've had only 4 hours sleep for the last 4 days. I worked 14 hours today...nonstop packing, lifting, moving. I kept up a steady stream of persperation for a solid 6-8 hours. Around midnight my mind gave way and for the next 3 hours spoke of nothing but ducks. This turned out to be the highlight of the day, you'd never realize just how funny things sound when your exhausted. But common, ducks are just hilarious.
Tommorrow morning our moving truck which we just finished packing will go to san antonio. We will spend the day unloading and return tommorrow night. Over the course of the next few weeks we will finish moving everything out (we only got about half).
Now that you know my story, I'll let you think on it for a while. I'm tired, I'm dirty, I'm sweaty, My muscles hurt, My bones are breaking, my right leg feels like it's been twisted, I'm cut, It's 3:44 A.M...and i'm waking up at 8 A.M.
I'm gonna shower and go to bed. Here's to a fifth straight night of 4 hours sleep!

The Fun Parts of Life

Gosh, so much to do I have no idea where to begin. My sisters wedding is in 6 days...well really 5 since this day is pretty much over. That's a pretty big deal, ppl coming from all over the country (and other countries) to attend. I must say, she has a bit of popularity. Then of course with my whole family being here there will be some form of get together, which I will try my best to make it to but I can't promise anything. There's friends who wanna stay in my home during this time, wedding money to somehow scrape together, console myself that i'll be wearing the same shirt that the groom of this wedding wore to my older brother's wedding last year, that I wore to two proms, and that I wore to another wedding last year. Hey, at least it's well worn.
Something else i've been noticing is that apparently normal ppl don't go to too many weddings. In fact some of the people coming havn't been to a single one. Would you say i'm spoiled in that I went to 2 last year? I really don't think it's so many, I mean, I missed the weddings of 2 older brothers, in cali and canada. So really I should've been to more. But I guess it's just one of the things that comes standard with big familys.


One of the slightly less humorous things about this is that all of these wedding things are not exactly "home priority". What I mean to say is, the fact that my whole family will be in town for a little while is nice and all, but I still have responsibilities in my home that I CAN'T avoid. Besides that, there is the whole moving thing to deal with. To simplify this i've made a short little list of the things I have to deal with.

Working (includes, texturing, painting, pressure-washing, sheetrocking, and tiling) to name some of the bigger things.

Moving

Lifting heavy objects

Dropping heavy objects

Ruining your feet by walking bare-foot on wet concrete for 8 hours

Being attacked by ants on a daily basis

Help my old home move 6 cubic feet of cement

Help my old home drop 6 cubic feet of cement

Shovel the cement back into the wheelbarrows

Burning my feet

Breaking my flip-flops

Doing my laundry

Cooking

Cleaning

Being vomited on by babies

Changing Diapers

Feeding a baby

Spanking a naughty child

Teaching dislexic children

Getting word time

Cleaning out swimming pools

Taking care of dogs

Working out

Finding time to talk to my friends

Finding time to listen to peoples sob-stories

Run

Remembering all my phone numbers because I accidently took my phone into the pool and now the LCD screen dosn't work

Sleep

To clarify this is my day to day stuff. Notice I didn't include anything about the wedding. It's not my wedding, and theres tons of little things about it that help fill up my day, I can only imagine what actually hosting the wedding is doing to my poor sisters brain.

Anyway, I hope with this post you all realize why posting is not something I do so regularly. Having time to post is one thing, having time to think of something to say is another.

Trivia games for $300

I just found a fun way to make my blog a bit more enjoyable. See that link on the top of my list all the way over there to the right? Click on that and you'll be directed to my daily trivia tournament. There's new quizzes every day, and each player's score is listed, with the highest score showing at the very top of the list. So here's your chance for everyone to prove your smarter than me! :D

Anyhow if you wanna play a little trivia just click on the link and click the "Play Now" button in the bottom left corner of the screen. Oh one last thing, you'll have to create an account on the host website to play. It only takes a few seconds, and it wont' give you a virus or anything like that. k, Enjoy.